you never know till you lost it (episode galau)

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you never can get it back. I’m still in love with you and I don’t know why. A million words would not trust you heart, I know because I’ve tired, neither would a million tears, I know I’ve cried. Wanting ‘him’ is hard to forget, loving ‘him’ is hard to regret, losing ‘him’ is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I’ve felt letting go is the most painful yet. Sometime I just have to hold my head up high, blink away the tears and say ‘goodbye’. I made choice to finally let go, because I can’t stand the pain, it’s time for my last tear to fall and smile again. I cried today…. Not because I miss you.. or even wanted you.. but because I’m realized I’m gonna be all right without you. you wonder why I don’t talk to you anymore, and please believe me when I say it’s not that I don’t want to, it’s just that everything I want to say I can’t tell you anymore. The hardest thing about growing up is that you have to do what is right for you even if it means breaking someone’s heart. And if you can say you don’t feel anything for me, I finally let you go. Nothing.. it’s your right J. Sometimes all you need it’s a broken heart to realize that something even better is right in front of our eyes, just waiting to be found. Of course, you’re going to get your heart broken. That’s just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. Then you can handle it better next time. You may not get through it yourself , but your ‘Friends’ will help you through it. And you’ll be a stronger person because it. Then one day someone will come along, and it’ll pay off and no one will ever break your heart again. Just must be you know, I frustrated because I can’t tell if it’s real. Mad because I don’t know you feel. Upset because we can’t make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won’t take my hand. Aggravated because you don’t understand. Disappointed because we can’t be together. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I’m stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me. Hahaahaa, it’s so freak. I hate to turn on the song if the song that I heard always related to you. hoah! This time is over, I’m gonna be strong and not fall apart… it’ll get better. I’ll no longer cry. I’ll be able to sleep. I won’t hurt so bad and I won’t hurt so deep! I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that I have never seen J. Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still fun and I guess these thing just tend to apart and I hope you feel the same, sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision only clears after our eyes are washed away with tears J.  #it’s just a story of someone heart… LET’S BE FRIENDS…!! (really really friendship)